There's A Thin Line...

Is it possible to hate someone and love that person at the same time? There is a thin line between love and hate. When I was with my ex-boyfriend there were times when I felt like I truly hated him but I also still loved him. I mean I honestly felt hatred for him for the way that he treated me at times, yet I couldn't seem to stop loving him. Eventually he pushed me to my breaking point and I had to get him out fo my life. How is it that I managed to feel the two most extreme emotions from opposite ends of the spectrum for the same person. The heart is a strange thing. One would thing it would be impossible to feel hatred/love for a person. It seems improbable yet I'm sure I'm not the only person to ever feel that way about someone. Perhaps it has something to do with how much control/power a person has over you. I'm not really sure, but I would love to find out. I hope to never feel that way about another person again. I prefer to keep those two emotions separate.

Proper English

Anyone who grew up in the hood knows about being referred to as a white boy/girl simply because he/she speaks proper English and studies. Why is it such a horrible thing to want an education and want to leave the hood. Why are boys and girls who try to better themselves ridiculed for actually being smart? I have never understood this behavior and the sad part is that it doesn't necessarily come from children. There are adults who begrudge a child for speaking properly. Perhaps it is because of their own shortcomings and maybe a little jealousy that people feel the need to hate on those trying to better themselves. Since childhood I have always loved to read and I have always valued learning and wanting something more from life, most people would perceive these as great qualities; yet i was always made fun of in my "hood" because of these qualities. I still get the white girl comment whenever I go home. Of course, this is from a group of people who have failed to do anything with their lives and who are stuck in the same situation they were born into.

When are mothers in the ghettos across America going to finally encourage their children to study and try to move up in the world, instead of calling them stupid and discouraging them from ever trying to be something more. Sure there have always been a few mothers who have done this, but with the growth of teenage mothers who prefer to club than to help their children with homework, if they can, the future for ghetto youth seems disappointing. So many intelligent boys and girls are discouraged from doing well because they are scared of the teasing or worse yet they suffer the fate of having a child while a teenage and not having anyone around to let them know that that is not the end of the world. That you can still succeed. We need to get it together and be proud of those kids who aren't satisfied with a welfare check and slangin' dope and the inevitable choice between jail or hell.

It Ain't Hatin If You Tellin' The Truth

People take the term "hater" to extremes. You can't say anything to a person that he or she doesn't want to hear or disagrees with without the person accusing you of being a hater. Why is this? When did telling teh truth become "hatin"? I believe in being honest with people, for the most part. sometimes he truth isn't what you want to here and it can hurt, but it's not hatin'. Hatin' is when someone is jealous or envious of a person and therefore attempts to bring that person down and make him/herself feel better about his/her station in life. If someone makes a true statement about you and it's without malice, it's not hatin. The truth is the truth. I don't really envy anyone because no one's life is perfect. If I, being an intelligent black woman, tell you something; it's not to hurt you. I want to help you see the light. I have tact and I am not a spiteful person, so please believe me when I say that everyone who tells you something you may not like isn't hatin' on you. Yes the world is full of haters, but not everyone who isn't your biggest fan and kiss our butt is a hater. You know and I know it. So get over it. If you real, you can spot a hater from a mile away. Real recognizes real.

Getting In Touch With Your Star Player

Your star player: that's you. At the Katt Williams show last Friday, which was hilarious, part of his routine centered around getting in touch with your star player. That made me realize that I haven't been in touch with my star player. I've been spending too much time worrying about other people and their issues and trying to make them happy. It's time I get in touch with my star player--myself. I have been feeling really lost recently. Not enjoying life, not being happy, not getting my seven chuckles in whenever I can. I have lost touch with who I am and what I want, as a matter fo fact, I no longer know what I want. I'm in a slump. I have lost my way. I am like a sheep without a shepherd. What's a girl to do? Get in touch with her star player, that's what. It's time to focus on me, to focus n what I want, on what makes me happy, on getting my seven chuckles.

I know life is about sacrifice, but one should never have to sacrifice self in order to help or appease others. It's time people realized that life really is short and that it is time to enjoy oneself. One day you're here and the next you're gone. With the state of the economy and the worries over food and gas prices and the housing slump, people are becoming more stressed out as each day passes. We are forgetting about enjoying the life we have given to us and instead worrying about everything and trying to cut back cost. All I ask is that we all make some time for ourselves. Find something you truly enjoy and take advantage of your ability to do it. I for one am super excited about skydiving and plan on doing it at some point this summer. I am determined to get in touch with my star player, I hope you do the same.